Random Thoughts

> Pinoy Dream Academy is such an inspiring TV show. I like it. Go PINOY! =)
> I had a great day yesterday. Spending my time with my family and relatives made my day complete.
> I like the movie Urduja. I love the character Kukot (dubbed by Michael V.). *LOL* The movie is like Pocahontas with a little touch of Lion King. It's a good start for Filipinos.
> I like a certain song.. and it makes me strong whenever I hear it. I heard it from Pinoy Dream Academy.
> I was able to answer a puzzle (a logic quiz). Yey! I thought I will not be able to answer it. It's fulfilling to be able to answer one.
> I bought a coloring book and a box of crayons. I'm loving coloring again. haha!
> I love listening to upbeat 80's songs and Gary V songs again. It makes my day happy.

My parents

Taken in Aparri, June 16, 2008

I love my parents very much. Thanks for everything Mama and Papa. =)

Decisions

To sell or not to sell... to leave or not to leave.. tough decisions.. I'll think it over...

Anyway, thanks Sally, Vicky, Karen, Chat and Lyka for a nice lunch in Tiendesitas. ^^

There's a long way to go

I want to know more. I'm having this desire to know a lot in my work. I admire my trainor who knows a lot. I admire successful people who knows a lot in my field as well in other fields. How did they do it? They're so great. Well, I know one key: to read a lot, practice and to enjoy learning and doing what we do. I just know a little and I'm thankful that I have been given this opportunity to be trained and to study these things. 3 years in IT... there's a long way to go.. and being afraid is not an option right?

I still can't imagine what I will become in the next 10 yrs. Will I still be in this field? Will I be married already? haha! ^^ Will I stay single? Will I have a business or still be like what I am right now working 9 or more hours a day?

Only God knows what will happen...

And wherever I will be, whatever or whoever I will become, I'm grateful for God and for those people who are always been there.

AJA! If there's a will, there's a way.

Ang daming problema (giving my family a good life that they deserve, love problem, career path to take, pursuing one's dreams, coping with fast rising prices of goods and many more) but as my auntie said, "Wag mong problemahin ang problema. Hayaan mong problemahin ka ng problema." That's one quote I'll never forget.

Com-Sci World

Computer science.. such a big field.. there's so many possibilities.. so many things to learn..

Is this my passion? I guess not but I like what I'm learning about it. I'm afraid if I can cope with the fast emerging technologies but I know that if there's a will there's a way. It's time to love what I'm doing once again, be motivated and driven. My friend Sally and I have many plans. We will be good software developers and architects if we given a chance and proper training. We're still young and worrying won't solve anything. DREAM, BELIEVE and GO FAR! ^^

Your Authentic Self

Your Authentic Self (or mine) is your inner ‘you’, a unique blend of four equal components: passions, values, talents and skills.

A passion is any activity that gets us excited, something that while we are engaged in that specific activity, we lose track of time. It may be an activity that fills us with pride or a sense of accomplishment but the ‘bigger’ feelings are satisfaction and pleasure. Passions are usually specific: photography, greyhound rescue, adult literacy, Gothic architecture.

Your values help identify who you are. They are what makes ‘you’, ‘you’. The authors of the book The Lemming Conspiracy define values as ‘what you hold most personally meaningful in your life‘. Values are specific to you but sound bigger to others i.e Satisfaction Contractor; Restorative Countryside; Spontaneous Creation; Organic Diva; Childhood Whimsy. To learn more pick up Chocolate for the Soul.

Talents are the pieces of your personality that come to you naturally. You may have worked to sharpen them but they are the things that you have always been able to do well. Perhaps you are a fast reader or catch onto any sport without much effort.

Skills are the areas that you have worked to develop. Being a good listener is a skill. They are not talents but areas that you have sharpened and honed so they are strong within you. Being an extremely organized person is a skill.

Changes

Like Haw in Who Moved My Cheese, I think I need a change of environment, to move on and to face my fear. I'll buy a laptop this year, be studious once again, study what I want to learn, be involved in music (learn to play guitar? join a music team? ), and more. I'm planning to move to another company. I'll prepare. I need that. I'm afraid but I have to take the risk. If I fail, I'll try again.

I want to be confident again. God help me.

Adjustments

It's Friday again. It's weekend tomorrow. I'm going to Cagayan to be a godmother to my cousin, Janelle. I'm actually planning to join the Music Team of Victory Church tomorrow but I'll postpone it next week. I'm still wondering what I'm going to do in my career, life, extra curricular activities, business, and more. I'm just letting things done right now, not worrying too much, delivering what I have to deliver in terms of work tasks, training assignments and more. I'm reading books, the Bible, articles like Who Moved My Cheese. I finished reading Purpose Driven Life but I'm reading it again from the start. I also found a travel mate, my cousin Jennesa to accompany me from going home and going to office. Through her, I am able to adjust and somewhat enjoy my travel. I'm trying to adjust to changes, trying to be more matured, trying to get used to my new life, trying to find my purpose and meaning, finding the answers to the questions in my life...

Where are you

(I know you are out there baby...somewhere)
There is someone out there for me (I know there is somebody out there)
I know she is waiting so patiently (yeah) can you tell me her name? (Somebody tell me her name)
This life-long search is gonna drive me insane
How does she laugh? How does she cry? What's the color of her eyes?
Does she even realize I'm here?
Where is she? Where is she? Where is she? Where is this beautiful girl?
Who is she? Who is she? Who is gonna complete my world?
Where is she? Where is she? Where is this beautiful girl?
Who is she? Who is she? Who is gonna complete my world?
dadadadadada dadadada dadadadadada (where are you?)

[Natalie]
I'm staring out at the sky (I see you baby)
Praying that he will walk in my life
Where is the man of my dreams (right here) yea-yeah
I'll wait forever, how silly it seems
How does he laugh? How does he cry? What's the color of his eyes?
Does he even realize I'm here?
Where is he? Where is he? Where is he? Where is this beautiful guy?
Who is he? Who is he? Who is gonna take me so high?
Where is he? Where is he? Where is this beautiful guy?
Who is he? Who is he? Who is gonna take me so high?
dadadadadada dadadada dadadadadada (where are you?)

[Justin]
There is someone out there for me (there is someone out there for me)
I know she is waiting so patiently (so patient)
Can you tell me her name (can you tell me his name)
This life-long search is gonna drive me insane (that's right)

[Natalie]
How does he laugh? How does he cry? What is the color of his eyes?
Does he even realize I'm here?

[Justin]
Where is she? Where is she? Where is she? Where is this beautiful girl?
Who is she? Who is she? Who is gonna complete my world?

[Natalie]
Where is he? Where is he? Where is he? Where is this beautiful guy?
Who is he? Who is he? Who is gonna take me so high?

[Together]
dadadadadada dadadada (yeah) dadadadadada (I know you out there)
dadadadadada dadadada (yeah) dadadadadada

[Justin Talking]
Where are you?? I'm going to look all over the world baby
'Cuz I know you are out there
I know this might sound crazy, but I think I love you
dadadadadada (that's right) dadadada dadadadadada
dadadadadada dadadada (yeah) dadadadadada

Where are you??

[Just wondering when I'll meet this guy or if I already met him... but for now, I'll take care of myself and be prepared for the right time ^^]

I had a nice weekend - from Habitat from Humanity until the Blue Coral Resort teambuilding. It's really good helping other people and bonding with people. I had a great time. Thank God for all these blessings.

Happy moments

I'm happy today. My mom is already discharged from the hospital. I also had a good day in the office. I started my day okay. Ate and I went to the office together. I started my work figuring out how to use Interceptor and AOP of Spring for the Audit module of our application. I also received two calls from the same company that asked me what can I say about my two teammates. I had lunchout with my officemates (Sally, Chat, Derrick, TJ, Frytz, and Ross) in Tokyo Tokyo. We also had our training. I learned a lot today about Hibernate. I learned about Criteria, Restrictions, Filter, Projection Lists, and many more. We also have a take home task that applies what we have learned in our training lesson today. This day is also the last day of our project manager in the office so as a token of appreciation, the HR organized a mini gathering for her. We watched testimonial videos for her, ate baked macaroni, lumpiang shanghai, and pancit bihon. Later, we will celebrate Aldrich's birthday in Shangrila. Tommorrow, I will attend Habitat for Humanity. On Sunday, we will have our teambuilding in Blue Coral Resort.

I'm really thankful for these events and for my friends and family, most especially to God for these happy moments. Somehow, I'm able to forget my past and learn to hope once again. I just have to be contented and let God lead my life, to enjoy His blessings and be His good child.

Time.. I just need time and I'll be better.

FIGHT

I cried over my friend today cause I'm losing hope and I'm being negative again, tired of fighting, of routinary work, of trying to prove oneself to other people, to hope for a better life, and many more. That was just a moment of sadness. But this night, I realized I have many potentials, I have so many things to achieve, I can help people, and there's more to life. I must stand strong. FIGHT! Be brave. Be smart. Be cheerful. Be enthusiastic. Be positive. Cause I deserve better. We all deserve to be happy. And to be happy, it must start within me. So I better stop brooding over my past. There's more to life.

And to my friend, we can do this! ^^

Praying and hoping

I'm once a jolly girl who always see the goodness in people, full of hope, dedicated, strong and driven in everything I do. I still have that person inside of me. But being through a series of problems, I'm having a hard time being happy again. I'm praying a lot. I'm asking for strength and wisdom. Many people would say that what I've been through is just small compared to other people. Yes it is. I'm weak but I'm trying to be strong. And one of the ways I'm doing it is through God. I know He has good plans for me. I know this is just a test and I know He loves me, so He wants me to be happy. I still believe that those people who hurt me are good people. They're just confused and they need God. I also need God. I really need to move on and just learn from the past. I really need God to remove any hatred and bitterness in my heart.